For the past few years I've not been one to enjoy the holidays that I loved as a child and young adult. For me, they bring sadness and reflection of my failures at living life the way I dreamed I would. This year, although different, really is the same. I'm not sure how I'm going to handle the upcoming month.
Tomorrow I am going to walk in a 3 mile fun walk. I'm pondering finding a Jingle Bell Run to do. I think if I stay active it will help with the battle of the feelings.
Food wise, I'm just so unsure what to do. I don't remember what I did last year at this time of year, yet I know I was successful in maintaining my weight loss.
I've not updated this week because my weight loss has been non-existent.
The plan of building muscle, while has been successful in muscle gain, hasn't been good for weight loss. I'm going to schedule a BF test so I can see if it's been successful in fat loss. As soon as I'm done with the 8 week program, I'm going back to a cardio heavy workout program with body weight exercises for maintaining the muscle I did build, until I get down in weight.
Exercise isn't the issue, food is. I need to figure out a way to beat the battle with food again. I know my home life, and my lack of motivation and willpower are to blame. I just need to find a way to work through it, emotionally, so that psychically I can overcome my issues.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Just 10 Recap & Bootie Bustin Start!
Yesterday I worked from home and between watching movies while working and taking Jonas to his dad, I didn't blog at all.
Yesterday gets a 4 out of 5. I walked Jonas to/from school, but I'm not counting it as my movement, as I relate it to my walk to/from work during the regular work week. I didn't get any exercise in yesterday. Eating goals and everything else were good. I did have soda with dinner, but I drank a lot of water and tea earlier in the day.
Today we're going to see Harry Potter and have a game night with my brother and his fiance. Should be a day of great fun. I plan on getting in a walk this afternoon between the two. Today also starts the Holiday Bootie Buster Challenge. I earn points for moving my arse! So my goal today? Walk/run for at least 2 miles.
Yesterday gets a 4 out of 5. I walked Jonas to/from school, but I'm not counting it as my movement, as I relate it to my walk to/from work during the regular work week. I didn't get any exercise in yesterday. Eating goals and everything else were good. I did have soda with dinner, but I drank a lot of water and tea earlier in the day.
Today we're going to see Harry Potter and have a game night with my brother and his fiance. Should be a day of great fun. I plan on getting in a walk this afternoon between the two. Today also starts the Holiday Bootie Buster Challenge. I earn points for moving my arse! So my goal today? Walk/run for at least 2 miles.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Just 10 - Day 15
I wasn't expecting to see the scale move much today, however a bit of a move would have been nice. I'm not stressing about it, however, I'm just accepting it and moving on.
My goals for today:
I think, honestly, the logging of the food and me getting enough liquid has been poor for the past week. In order to success, I really need to do both.
Today for snacks I brought a big apple, clementine tangerines and 2 oz of pretzels. Lunch is going to be a Chipotle Burrito Bol. I'll also have a protein shake after my workout and finish up the cup of coffee I have. Tonight for supper, I have no idea! I pulled out ground turkey. I'm thinking something along the line of either burger, chili, pasta or finding a good ground meat & quinoa dish. Either way. Measuring will happen!
Today is going to be a great day!
My goals for today:
- No Soda
- Strength Workout B (Deadlifts, Shoulder Press, Lat Pull Down, Lunges & Crunches on Ball)
- Drink 3 bottles of water and/or SF Drink Mix
- Log all my food!
I think, honestly, the logging of the food and me getting enough liquid has been poor for the past week. In order to success, I really need to do both.
Today for snacks I brought a big apple, clementine tangerines and 2 oz of pretzels. Lunch is going to be a Chipotle Burrito Bol. I'll also have a protein shake after my workout and finish up the cup of coffee I have. Tonight for supper, I have no idea! I pulled out ground turkey. I'm thinking something along the line of either burger, chili, pasta or finding a good ground meat & quinoa dish. Either way. Measuring will happen!
Today is going to be a great day!
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Just 10 - Day 14
To say I was disappointed this morning when I jumped on the scale is a bit of a statement. Was I upset about it? Not really. Generally the morning after my strength training I notice a gain. So how did the day rate? 4 out of 5. Why? My food portions were a bit off. Not a whole lot, and mostly at dinner, but enough that I felt I didn't get to claim that point.
Today, I'm writing quite a bit later than normal. My day thusfar? Can be summed up with redeeming in the end. I had a rough day. My sinuses were bugging me, I'm fighting a bit of a cold and just felt generally crappy. A walk down and then up 2 flights of stairs made my head throb more, so I opted not to do my planned cardio. Eating wise, I did alright. I did have a small soda this morning in an attempt to get the drugs moving in my system. Tonight however, after getting home from a dinner out and a jaunt at Meijer for food drives and PJ drives, I decided a cardio video was in order. I pulled out the Biggest Loser video I have and opted for the high-intensity cardio. My legs burned. I was pouring sweat. And now? I feel great. Even though today doesn't get a super high rating 3 out of 5, I feel good about the day. (Can we say huge omelet for supper with a side of pancakes?)
Today, I'm writing quite a bit later than normal. My day thusfar? Can be summed up with redeeming in the end. I had a rough day. My sinuses were bugging me, I'm fighting a bit of a cold and just felt generally crappy. A walk down and then up 2 flights of stairs made my head throb more, so I opted not to do my planned cardio. Eating wise, I did alright. I did have a small soda this morning in an attempt to get the drugs moving in my system. Tonight however, after getting home from a dinner out and a jaunt at Meijer for food drives and PJ drives, I decided a cardio video was in order. I pulled out the Biggest Loser video I have and opted for the high-intensity cardio. My legs burned. I was pouring sweat. And now? I feel great. Even though today doesn't get a super high rating 3 out of 5, I feel good about the day. (Can we say huge omelet for supper with a side of pancakes?)
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Just 10 - Day 13
I've been staring at this screen for a while now while I'm doing my work wondering what I want to write, where I want to go.
Yesterday was a higher caloric day than planned, but I got out for a walk during my workday and a good walk in the evening with the boys. Because of everything I ate, I'm going to dock myself for that and call it a 4 out of 5 day.
I know the eating yesterday was attributed to not getting enough sleep the night before and being worn out as well as not wanting to be at work. I also had planned to make it a cardio day and once I had plans to workout at night, I canceled my plans for the day and just took a walk outside for some fresh air.
Today has been alright in the eating department. I even went down and did my strength training program. The issue I'm having today is I'm not feeling it.
Last week I posted to the forum of the strength training program that I'm following about how I was pondering gloves because of my hands and the amount of weight I use for deadlifts. The basic answers I receieved after saying how I've been doing squats and deadlifts (both are supposed to be with an olympic barbell) I was told there was no way I was doing the squats right with the smith machine and there is no possible way to do deadlifts correctly with dumbbells. That I need to quit my gym and join a new one. I told myself, it's not personal, they live this program and I'm doing it to gain muscle to help me with this last leg of my weight loss journey. But today, I realized it has bothered me. Do I want to support the program after the initial 8 weeks by continuing on? Do I want to do something else? As I type this I think, "They are two bimbos who aren't the author, don't know my story and don't know how I'm actually doing with this program."
I look at that, and where I've gone in the 6 weeks I've been doing this program. In just the two hardest exercises today I've gone from squats with 50 pounds to squats with 110 pounds. I've gone from step-ups with 30 pounds to step-ups with 60 pounds. I see definition in my arms. I feel the strength in my legs and my core.
I'm doing doing nearly the amount of cardio I had been doing, which is probably attributing to the slow in weight loss. I plan on upping the cardio in the coming weeks by not only doing some cardio at the gym but also at home with the boys. I enjoy our walks together, even if they don't get me to the point of pouring out sweat. It's activity, together. The sweat can get poured out at the gym.
So what are my goals for the rest of the year, in regard to exercising that is?
Yesterday was a higher caloric day than planned, but I got out for a walk during my workday and a good walk in the evening with the boys. Because of everything I ate, I'm going to dock myself for that and call it a 4 out of 5 day.
I know the eating yesterday was attributed to not getting enough sleep the night before and being worn out as well as not wanting to be at work. I also had planned to make it a cardio day and once I had plans to workout at night, I canceled my plans for the day and just took a walk outside for some fresh air.
Today has been alright in the eating department. I even went down and did my strength training program. The issue I'm having today is I'm not feeling it.
Last week I posted to the forum of the strength training program that I'm following about how I was pondering gloves because of my hands and the amount of weight I use for deadlifts. The basic answers I receieved after saying how I've been doing squats and deadlifts (both are supposed to be with an olympic barbell) I was told there was no way I was doing the squats right with the smith machine and there is no possible way to do deadlifts correctly with dumbbells. That I need to quit my gym and join a new one. I told myself, it's not personal, they live this program and I'm doing it to gain muscle to help me with this last leg of my weight loss journey. But today, I realized it has bothered me. Do I want to support the program after the initial 8 weeks by continuing on? Do I want to do something else? As I type this I think, "They are two bimbos who aren't the author, don't know my story and don't know how I'm actually doing with this program."
I look at that, and where I've gone in the 6 weeks I've been doing this program. In just the two hardest exercises today I've gone from squats with 50 pounds to squats with 110 pounds. I've gone from step-ups with 30 pounds to step-ups with 60 pounds. I see definition in my arms. I feel the strength in my legs and my core.
I'm doing doing nearly the amount of cardio I had been doing, which is probably attributing to the slow in weight loss. I plan on upping the cardio in the coming weeks by not only doing some cardio at the gym but also at home with the boys. I enjoy our walks together, even if they don't get me to the point of pouring out sweat. It's activity, together. The sweat can get poured out at the gym.
So what are my goals for the rest of the year, in regard to exercising that is?
- Continue with the strength training twice a week (continuing with the program I'm doing)
- Do cardio at the gym twice a week (35 minute min - alternate run/walk, elliptical, bike)
- Do cardio at home with the boys at least twice a week, but aim for three times a week (walking and/or running)
Monday, November 15, 2010
Weekend Recap - Just 10 Days 10,11, 12
Friday, Day 9 was a pretty good day. We had slow cooked pork for lunch and Mediterranean for supper. I didn't get any extra movement in from normal day activities so Friday was a 4 out of 5.
Saturday, Day 10, we were barely at home. We had a good family breakfast and then got ready to head out to the Jelly Belly Warehouse in WI for a tour. We had a semi decent lunch and then enjoyed our time at the warehouse. We opted to stop at Gurnee Mills on the way home. We walked, played at the arcade, drove some slot cars, had dinner and about 4.5 hours later, headed home. Food out wasn't the best, but I made good choices. I, however, didn't stay away from soda. I ended up having some. So Saturday was a 4 out of 5.
Sunday, Day 11 was another day that was seemingly nonstop. After our normal Sunday Morning Family Breakfast at my parents we came home and raked leaves, mowed the yard and re-layed the brick patio. About 4 hours later, tired, we had lunch and I napped. We went out for dinner at Red Robin and then took a stroll around Wal-Mart for a few things we needed. I did have soda again, on the drive to dinner, but had tea at dinner. Overall, the day was a 4 out of 5.
Today is Day 12. I'm back at the weight I started at 12 days ago. I know I have more muscle, I know my body is yelling at me for not enough rest this weekend. But I'm not discouraged. I know I'm doing a good thing. I also know that I've got less to lose now than I did a year ago, and it'll come off slower than it did a year ago.
I've been a ton hungrier than normal today and felt like I've been eating all morning. It makes me think that my lunch won't be filling enough and I should find something to go with it. Soda-wise, I've not had any and don't plan on having any today. Dinner tonight is going to be turkey burgers and I'm planning on dragging everyone over to Lincoln Center for a walk tonight. I'm still waiting for them to post an updated schedule to make sure they will be open tonight. If they're not, I'm still going to do something at home. I am planning on a workout today at work as well. I'm going to do cardio today and my weights Tuesday & Thursday this week.
Saturday, Day 10, we were barely at home. We had a good family breakfast and then got ready to head out to the Jelly Belly Warehouse in WI for a tour. We had a semi decent lunch and then enjoyed our time at the warehouse. We opted to stop at Gurnee Mills on the way home. We walked, played at the arcade, drove some slot cars, had dinner and about 4.5 hours later, headed home. Food out wasn't the best, but I made good choices. I, however, didn't stay away from soda. I ended up having some. So Saturday was a 4 out of 5.
Sunday, Day 11 was another day that was seemingly nonstop. After our normal Sunday Morning Family Breakfast at my parents we came home and raked leaves, mowed the yard and re-layed the brick patio. About 4 hours later, tired, we had lunch and I napped. We went out for dinner at Red Robin and then took a stroll around Wal-Mart for a few things we needed. I did have soda again, on the drive to dinner, but had tea at dinner. Overall, the day was a 4 out of 5.
Today is Day 12. I'm back at the weight I started at 12 days ago. I know I have more muscle, I know my body is yelling at me for not enough rest this weekend. But I'm not discouraged. I know I'm doing a good thing. I also know that I've got less to lose now than I did a year ago, and it'll come off slower than it did a year ago.
I've been a ton hungrier than normal today and felt like I've been eating all morning. It makes me think that my lunch won't be filling enough and I should find something to go with it. Soda-wise, I've not had any and don't plan on having any today. Dinner tonight is going to be turkey burgers and I'm planning on dragging everyone over to Lincoln Center for a walk tonight. I'm still waiting for them to post an updated schedule to make sure they will be open tonight. If they're not, I'm still going to do something at home. I am planning on a workout today at work as well. I'm going to do cardio today and my weights Tuesday & Thursday this week.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Just 10 - Day 9
Yesterday, oh yesterday... I'm giving it a 5 out of 5, even though I did have soda. I've been really good with not drinking soda. The occasional one on a special day I think is the exception. When we went out for supper last night (issue with the pork not being done) I had iced tea and fajitas, of which, I ate maybe 1/3 of the food they gave me. I had an awesome workout yesterday! I continue to amaze myself with the weights that I'm lifting for the NROWFL (New Rules of Weight Lifting for Women) workout that I'm following. I did realize yesterday, however, I can't continue without using gloves. I'm posting a question about it to the forums for the workout program and seeing what the ladies there say.
Today, working from home, I've done well with breakfast, beverages and the like. Plans today include a family cardio session, lunch at home and dinner is still up in the air. I'm half between feeling like celebrating and half between "let's eat at home and do something special tomorrow" and "let's do both!" Hee! I'll bring the options in front of the family this afternoon and see what the results are.
The weight is still steadily going down, which makes me happy. I found my Body Fat scale yesterday and tried it today but it's giving me an error. I'll have to research what that means.
Today, working from home, I've done well with breakfast, beverages and the like. Plans today include a family cardio session, lunch at home and dinner is still up in the air. I'm half between feeling like celebrating and half between "let's eat at home and do something special tomorrow" and "let's do both!" Hee! I'll bring the options in front of the family this afternoon and see what the results are.
The weight is still steadily going down, which makes me happy. I found my Body Fat scale yesterday and tried it today but it's giving me an error. I'll have to research what that means.
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